Is it Sunday already?

Hi. It's Sunday evening and I'm just hanging out in the office. Steve is here keeping me company because I'm feeling s bit forlorn. Just a bit mind you. I've got lots of stress and so far there's no end in sight.

We've been up to see J. every day this week and he's doing ok. Hanging in there which is at least a start. It was good to see him smile and laugh a bit today and see a little of his goofy side. I'm glad he's doing better because we love him and he is a much greater influence for good in the kids lives than he realizes. They really look up to him. I'm glad he's sticking around

Elaine's last day to file an appearance to contest the divorce is tomorrow and guess what... she's coming over to the Island. I hope it's to see J and not to see her lawyer. Sigh. I want to be optimistic but PMS is preventing me from feeling melancholy. I just want her to let Steve get divorced so we can be a proper family and get married. I'm consoling myself with chocolate but I'm sharing so it's ok. :)

Tomorrow is going to be another LONG day. We'll leave early to get up to J's condo, pack, clean carpets, clean and re-paint as necessary. I've got to be back for the kids by 2pm but Steve can stay a little later. He's picking J up at 4pm ish and he's coming for dinner and Family Home Evening. I have NO idea of an appropriate lesson but I'm sure I'll come up with something.

Tired. That's how I feel. A bit overwhelmed and in need of a vacation where I could just stay in bed all day and eat fruit, maybe read or write some more of my book or some poetry. There just never seems to be enough time. I think instead I'll turn in early after having a shower and using some nice soap I got from the Farmers Market in Courtenay with essential oils and stuff to relax you. Sounds good doesn't it? It's from the botanical soap shop and her stuff is really nice. Steve will probably watch some Fawlty Towers which is always good for a laugh too. It'll be nice to just snuggle and not worry about tomorrow.

It's getting dark to I'm going to put the chickens to bed. They'll probably mob me for food too so I'll wear boots instead of my crocs.

Well there ya go. Another exciting entry...NOT!

Still, there's something emotionally cathartic about writing this blog, even though nobody reads it. Perhaps that's the point. I don't put my deepest feelings here, but getting the overload out is a relief.

Oh, Listened to Pres. Monson today at Stake Conference and got some words of wisdom. Will have to print his talk.

I hope that if anyone ever reads this they will know this simple truth. That we are all connected in this universe. We on Earth are all brothers and sisters literally. Love is never lost. It may change form, may act as a catalyst for changing our lives, may hurt us and may teach us how to grow. Love changes the world because it changes our perception of how we as individuals fit into the whole scheme of things. If we feel needed, cared for and appreciated then everything looks better. It's sad that so many people will never understand that they are never truly alone and that they have Heavenly Parents who love them and miss them and want to bless them. I know that for myself it's hard to remember that sometimes when the weight of the world is crushing down, but that's when we all need it most. SO tonight I'm going to pray a simple prayer to my Heavenly Father to thank him for all my blessings (and I have lots) and to ask for his help and comfort and peace. I have a family who love me, I'm not alone in the cold world. So I'm counting my blessings. What are you grateful for?


I am grateful for my family who love me unconditionally. Even when I screw up, or am grouchy, or sad.